My back problem is acting up again.  I couldn’t walk now and lying on the bed isn’t too comfortable for me.

It all happened this afternoon in the office.  We wanted to go for lunch, then when I stood up, I felt the pain.  I could barely walk since then.  Came home after resting in the office for a while.

I am scared because I don’t know what will happen to me.  We’ve tried everything we could in the past and nothing helped.  I hope I don’t have to go through the pain again.

The magazine’s dateline is nearing as well and I have a lot of things that needs to be done.  I told Ken and he said he’ll handle it.  If this goes on longer, I might be quitting my job.  I can’t be nursing my pain but leave the responsibilities to my colleagues, that’s just not right. 

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking.  After the epidural injection last year, I had one of the best times of my life.  I got the job I wanted, I met a lot of new people through the job, I traveled around and getting paid by doing all these.  I could do all these things as my back was well. 

Today, I will be losing all these, one by one.

I am in total breakdown mode.  I don’t know what to do.