For no reason, I am feeling a little down right now.  Actually there is a reason but I am not going to blog it here.  It’s for me to know and for you to not find out.  It’s just something that has been in my mind lately.

I want to be able to do what ever I want. 

I want things to go the way I wanted.

I couldn’t do this because I am tied up.

I want to have an active lifestyle but I can’t because of my back problems.
 
I want to be financially independent but I am a big spender.  

I want to meet more people and make more friends but I can’t because I don’t have a healthy body for a healthy lifestyle. 

I want to be able to do everything I want with ease but I am too stupid to do it.

And most importantly, I want to try something new but I am tied to a huge commitment, a commitment that I am no longer interested in.  A commitment that has given me so much.  A commitment that I have sacrificed so much and most of all, a commitment that I can’t just abandon.

Sometimes in life you make mistakes and these mistakes could ruin your life forever. 

Sometimes I just want to leave everything behind and start all over again but I can’t do that because of this commitment that I have.  How I wished I was reborn again with memories that I have right now so I wouldn’t repeat the mistakes.  I guess that’s life.

I know everyone out there wouldn’t understand what I am trying to say here.  It’s good.  It’s meant to be like that but I assure you that everything written in this entry is connected to only one thing.

This is my first emotional entry in my blog.  Thanks for reading my emo post.  I think I’ll sleep this over and hope that everything will be back to normal after I wake up.