Been thinking a lot these few days. The stuff I’ve been thinking:

• It’s been nearly 6 months since I resigned, I am still jobless. I did try to look for a job, but non of them asked me for an interview. The ones that I went for interviews are all taken by some other people. I’ve been thinking if i should go and work for my dad. I know he needs help in his business, and I know some day I will be going back to help him. It’s just that once I work for him, I would be stuck there forever. Not that it’s a bad thing, but I just don’t want it to happen this early.
  

• My back pain is getting worse by the day. I even have difficulties walking straight. I am on full time medication at the moment, I tried reducing the medication dose as I know medication always have side effects. I know I need another operation to mend it back but after what my aunty went through, I don’t know if my mum could face it again.  My back is also one of the main reason I am procastinating in finding a job. If i have a job, I wouldn’t be able to perform my tasks as well as in the past.
  

• I am not working, means I am financially defunct. For the past 6 months, I’ve been living off my savings and it is running close to empty now. I need a job to finance my livings. I envy my friends who could afford to go out for a nice meal once in a while. I envy those who could buy stuff that they crave. I envy those who could go on holiday trips with their loved ones while I can’t even afford a domestic trip wil Eileen. I envy them, but I can’t do much.
  

• Eileen have been with me for close to 8 years now and we both reached the age of marriage and it’s quite obvious that one day, we will get married. I love her loads and I’ve been thinking when will this day come as my savings are now empty-ing, I don’t have money to buy a house, heck, I can’t even afford a wedding ring, let alone a wedding dinner. I don’t really want to let her down.
  

I want to keep my priorities right. My main priority now is to settle my back first. I am trying to correct my sitting and sleeping posture and controlling my diet. I really hope that my back won’t ruin my whole life.

Next, I would like to get a job and to be financially stable again, save more, and marry Eileen.

I’ve just finished all my classes for the semester for my MBA program,the exam is next Friday and Saturday. I have all the time to study but I kept thinking of these stuff.

After my exams, I will be doing some freelance work for CHIP magazine, the company that went bankrupt before I got in. I’ll also be doing some computer networking stuff for Koon in Kuala Selangor.

I am hoping for the best. Thanks for reading.